Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Frozen Dinner and a Glass of Wine

Today, I got home from work at about 6:45pm. I walked into a house that I own, and poured myself a glass of wine while I cooked a frozen dinner. In the 2 1/2 minutes it took to cook, I looked around and just started laughing. If you had told me 5 years ago what my life would look like today and where I was going to be, I would have said you were crazy. I figured I'd probably be married, working in marketing probably a couple of levels lower than I am now, and who knows...maybe even with a child on the way like a lot of my friends. Wine wasn't really a part of my life at that time (which i'm sure makes my mom happy since I was only 20!) so that part of my evening wouldn't have registered.

It's just funny to me how I am, in a lot of ways, so far from where I thought I would be 5 years ago. But with the way things have transpired, I know that I am right where I should be. I think I laughed tonight because its just amusing how we think we've got it all figured out, but God just says, "You have plans? Nope! I know the plans I have for you..."

I've been going through one of my "single hating" times, where I just get really annoyed at having to pretend that I am 100% happy being single and that I don't want anything else (because if you're a girl and show even the slightest sign that you would like someone to share your life with, you're labeled "desperate"). But it's nights like tonight when God, in a really weird way, reminds me that he's in control and things will happen on his timetable. And he did it all through a frozen dinner and a glass of wine. :)

P.S. For future reference, if you ever ask me if I'm dating anyone and I say no, please do not follow it up with "Oh, but you're only single because you're doing the career thing right now, right?" That just makes me feel like there should be something wrong with me if I'm not purposely staying single, and 2 or 3 of these comments in a row is what sets off the "single hating" time...


Lynn Leaming said...

I for one can testify that waiting for God's timing is awesome! I was 36 before I married and had every feeling that you have had I am sure. Especially when I turned 30 and still wasn't married. I had been in two relationships that I tried to force and when I look back I am so glad for the heartache because I cannot imagine not being married to Steve. He was absolutely God's best for me. So just keep letting God be in control and don't listen to any other voices and you too will be totally blessed!

Bogle said...

I liked this post! I am so proud of you for where you are in life and seeing God through frozen dinners and glasses of wine. It IS amazing how things are never how we anticipate they are going to be. If you had asked me 10 years ago where I thought I would be at this stage of my life I would have told you "Broadway" crazy how things change and how God's plan takes you on a totally different rollercoaster ride than you expected. Thanks for you honesty about how you feel. Its refreshing.

Vani said...

Great thoughts you got there, believe I may possibly try just some of it throughout my daily life.

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