Thursday, April 14, 2005

Moving On

Last night was my last night as an active Kojie. We had senior goodbyes, where sophomores and juniors say nice things about us, give us a gift, and then we do the Kojie Stomp for the last time (until weddings at least). It is really emotional and always very special. All of these senior rituals that I have been taking part in recently have caused me to think about changing phases in life.

I'm really not sad about leaving ACU. I wasn't sad about leaving High School and I don't think I'll be sad when I finish grad school. I am definitely in the minority. Its just that when things end, I'm ready. No matter how long a vacation is, by the last 2 days, I'm ready to go home. I was fine during my 4 years here, but now in the last 2 weeks, I'm dying to leave. I know that there are going to be people here that I will miss, but the truth is, the ones that I am close to, I will keep in touch with. Acquaintances, although they are great, can change from place to place and I will survive.

I think the main reason that I am never sad to move on is because I am very blessed to have a group of best friends that have been there since I was a child. We still talk and hang out all the time and are very involved in each others lives. And I am pretty sure that no matter where we all go, we will always have each other. 2 have been added to "the group" because of marriage and I am honored to be able to call Ryan and Stephen my friends. Its at the point to where I forget they haven't been around since we were little. I guess 3 1/2 have really been added when you count Maisy and Baby #2. I only hope that the person I marry will fit in with this group so we can be like our parents. This is probably not the best thing, but every time I like a guy or date a guy, I try to picture if he would be friends with Ryan, Stephen, and Trey so we could all still hang out. And of course, Katie, Maggie, and Lindsey have kept me sane during my life time...or on occasion made me a little more insane when I needed to loosen up. I honestly don't think that I could ever find better friends than these people. If you could see me right now, you would know how important they are to me because one paragraph after talking about how I never cry and one night after not crying when EVERYONE else was, I am starting to cry just thinking about how special my friends are. Now I am just plain rambling so I am going to end this post, but I love you all so much and can't imagine my life with out you.

4 comments:

Lindsey said...

Em, I love you so much too. I'm so glad that I've gotten the opportunity to become even closer with you while out here at ACU. It's nice being out of the group at some moments and just being with a good friend. I wouldn't have survived in my first year out here if I didn't have your friendship.

I probably think about who I'm going to marry daily. The first thing that I think about is how they will fit in with our group. I think about that after each guy I meet. It's not like our group is really the most welcoming crowd so it kind of scares me. Well, just always know that I've got your back and I will be a supporter of your husband.

I love you and I'm going to die not having you here this summer and next year. Who will watch our shows with me? Who will go to Johnny Carino's every weekend with me? Who will play DDR any second of the day? Thank you for the many hours of listening and guidance through all my frustrations. Emily! Don't leave me!

Stuben said...

Em,

I think out of everyone I met when I started dating Katie and being around you guys, you were the one person I felt most comfortable around. You are a really great person and friend. I know no matter what you will be there to pick any of us up when we are down. You are also the smartest person I have ever met in my whole life. I think you should not worry about who you marry, because God has already picked him out. We will love anyone you bring because we know you and we know that person will share your qualities. Emily I am so glad your going to be around, because I do look up to you in many ways and you are a great example for me to have around. Like I said to Linds, dont worry God is looking out for you and will provide.

Emily said...

And if all else fails, He'll at least send me a nice cat...

Ryan said...

I can't imagine fighting any harder against letting Stephen into what I consider my family. I can't imagine feeling any more strongly that he didn't fit, and that he never would. And now, I can't imagine not having him around. So, whoever you two marry, no matter how hard we try to keep them out, I'm sure that eventually they will become a part of the family.

Can we all make a pact to get out of the mushy gushy posts that we seem to be wallering in lately?

-Ryan